Both the other two have said they see me conceiving in June this year although they did not agree on the gender.
The latest reading was by a different psychic, this one says they see me conceiving in August this year and they predict it will be little girl weighing between 5 and 6 lbs.
They also talked about how they can see I am scared time is running out for to have another baby and that I am worried I have left it too late, but if I was a cynic I might say this has something to do with them asking for and being given my date of birth.
They also mentioned a female spirit either a mother or grandmother watching over me and wanting me to know time is NOT running out and that it WILL happen for us.
I know these things may well not be true but I think it gives comfort and encouragement to people to see it in writing that their stress and worry will work out in the end.
To be honest I am really starting to need all the positive vibes and encouragement I can get as with every month that ends with a period or another negative pregnancy test another little bit of my hope fades away.
Today is day 32 in my 5th cycle of trying (Not including the WHOLE of 2008 when we were also trying with no luck) My period is not due for another 3 days, but today I am spotting very lightly and a light brown colour (TMI maybe but that is what this blog is about and I am being honest to the point of TMI lol)
So now I am yet again at the unbearable stage of waiting to see whether this turns into a full period or is the implantation sign I desperately would like it to be.p
This means analyzing every little cramp or twinge, waiting for the worst and deeply hoping for the best
I am going on holiday with all my in laws this summer and so want to be pregnant before then, but with every failed month that seems less and less likely.
I am really sorry today's blog is so depressing, but I need to get it out there.
Will post again once I know what's what this cycle......
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