Just call me Laid Back Lennie this month lol

After being sooo stressed and frankly gutted last month, I started this month thinking sod it basically.

Yes my heart is aching to see that positive pregnancy test result, but getting myself excited and fixated every month is clearly not working for me.

So although I did use ovulation prediction tests, because without them I have no idea if and when I might be ovulating, I have not been tracking my temperature or obsessing about what my cervix is and isn't doing.

In fact I have barely even kept track of what day of my cycle I am on or how many days past ovulation I am.

All I know is according to my little Clearblue pop up thing on my laptop, I am on cycle day 27 today and that my next period is apparently due on May 3rd.

So what about my hubby's sperm test results I hear you ask lol

Well when I spoke to my lovely gp he was very impressed with the actual count, he told me that they like it to be between 40 and 100 million and hubby's was...80 million, considering the national average is apparently around 60 million this means...hubby is a very proud bunny and you can just imagine how much he has been telling me so can't you?

The one concern my gp did have was that the sperm were non progressive which I have since found out basically means they are lazy little buggers with no sense of direction.

Luckily he said because there are sooooo many of them this should not be any problem in conception.

He wants us to keep trying for another month or two and if still no luck he will then make a referral to the fertility doctor at our local hospital.

He confirmed my FSH level was only 1.4 which rules out the dreaded menopause which at 36 was a massive fear of mine.

So this month we did the deed regularly before and after I got 3 days of positive ovulation tests until day 21 and am now just trying not to think too much about it all.

I was so ill for the week around ovulation it helped me not to think about it all too much, especially with it also being the Easter hols to keep me well and truly busy.

I am still regularly reading and joining in the lovely trying to conceive forum, but seeing more and more of the fantastic ladies on there getting their Big Fat Positives it gets hard at times, although depending on my mood, it can also give me hope that my turn is coming soon, especially when some of them are older than me and some of them have more kids than me, makes me feel less greedy wanting another baby.

Oh and have been a bit naughty and treated myself to another psychic reading to see whether she agrees with the other...2 I had done who predict a June pregnancy.

Watch this space.....