Seeing how it goes

Hello anyone out there reading this, before I go on I just wanted to say I hope your TTC journey's are going well, I say this because it has occured to me that anyone reading this might be doing so because they are also trying to conceive a baby so just wanted to take a moment to think of you too.

Anyway back to business lol
I DID take the soya isoflavones from cd5 untill cd9, I took 100mg each night just before I went to bed, I took them at bedtime as I was a bit worried about any possible side effects.
After taking them for a few days I did notice I felt a little out of it and groggy, but not so bad I could not cope with it.
I decided to take the 100mg as the tablets I took were 50mg and although I had read about people taking 200mg I was a bit worried as it was my first time taking them and did not want to take a massive dose straight away.
The plan was to see whether they made any difference this cycle and think about upping the dose for my  next cycle.

So I stopped taking them after cd9 and started taking internet cheapie ovulation tests the next day and got a positive result on cd18 and cd19.
I have had a positive on cd18 before but it is more common for me to have it closer to cd21 or later.
I also normally get positives for about 3 days in a row before they turn negative and this cycle it was only clearlt positive for 2 days so whether that means anything I don't know.

We have been doing the deed as they say every few days and we also did it the day before the first positive opk and then the next day (The day of the first positive) then have gone back to every few days.
Going by the online cycle calculator because I got an earlier positive opk my next period (AF) is due a little earlier, December 2nd, but it is so hard to know as my cycle lengths vary soooo much these days which seriously stresses me out as I keep getting my hopes up every month only to have them smashed time and time again.

I can't believe it is nearly a whole year since hubby finally agreed to start trying for another PROPERLY again (and final, his words) baby after longing for one for so long.
But it does hurt that after all this time and everything that we have tried, I have got absolutely nowhere and am no better off than I was last year.
Next Monday SHOULD have been our hospital appointment and we should have been finally getting the all important test results and deciding on the next step and now we are having to wait untill January :(

This cycle I have not even bought a single pregnancy test and have no plans to do so as I doubt I will need one, it will be the first month I have not bought one since this journey started.
So I guess we really are just seeing how it goes....