The Dreaded Two Week Wait.

It is the time of the month everyone trying to get pregnant looks forward to and dreads at the same time and when you have been trying for a long time that feeling only gets worse with each passing missed chance I can tell you.


Every month I tell myself I have NO symptoms, I do NOT feel queasy in the mornings, no my boobs are not any bigger than they were yesterday etc, but at the same time of course I am starting to wonder if they really are and yes today I don't feel right. That is the problem when you have been so desperate for something for so long, your mind can play the cruelest tricks.


Today is day 34 of my current cycle, I am not sure (as always) exactly when my next UNWANTED period is due as they have been so irregular, according to my online Clearblue chart thingy I am due on Friday but the Clearblue pop up thing says I am due tomorrow. But then there is the theory that you are meant to start your period 14 days after ovulation, which would mean I am due on Saturday (Oh today is Monday btw)


Following on from my last blog, I did carry on with testing for ovulation with the cheapie ovulation tests and finally did get a definite positive on day 22, they were also positive on day 23 and 24, on day 25 the line disappeared and apparently this is where you start counting days past ovulation (DPO as it is known)
So using that method I am now 9 dpo.


As I have talked about in previous blogs I have had several psychic readings done and many of them have said June was the month I would conceive so this month is even harder than the others, also it is now not long till I am due to go abroad on holiday with loads of the family and it would be lovely to be pregnant for then and even better if I was at least close to the 12 week stage as then in theory no morning sickness etc.


I do wish hubby would raise the subject with me himself once in a while, obviously I do tell him all of it, but even when I say nothing and wait for him to ask anything = he doesn't.


It is now less than a month till we go to see the fertility people at our local hospital, still not sure how I feel about that.


Wouldn't it be nice not to need it???