Playing the waiting game yet again!

Here we are again the time of every month I look forward to and dread at the same time, if that makes any sense whatsoever lol

As I said in my last blog, I ran out of ovulation tests this cycle just as they were starting to look like they were turning positive, we carried on playing it by ear and trying every other night over what seemed to be the right time.

I am a bit confused as to when my UNWANTED period is/was actually due, I use two online fertility charts and I think I put in the date my last period started slightly differently, it does get confusing as apparently you do not count from the first day you notice..anything, instead you are meant to count day one from the first day pf a proper flow (sorry if TMI yet again but it kind of goes with the territory.

So according to one fertility chart my period was due 2 days ago and according to the other it is due today.

I am using every little ounce of will power not to go pregnancy symptom spotting (despite my tingly boobs, headaches, tiredness.....)

I am not even THINKING of buying a pregnancy test until Thursday (Today is Monday btw lol) IF I do get to Thursday without period showing up I am planning to buy the test and test first thing on Friday morning.

I did not even look at the pregnancy tests when me and hubby went to Superdrug at the weekend, am very proud of that!

I am finding lots of things to distract me this month, for a start my eldest son Luke is doing his GCSEs, still cannot believe it even as I write that, this is something I have been terrified of since he was little and we first realised he had special needs.

I thought the whole battle to get him statemented and into the right secondary school was bad, but this whole exams and leaving school thing is HELL!!!!

Then there is the fact that hubby and I will have been married for a whole DECADE at the end of next month!!!!

Hubby bless him had really been hoping to take me away for a few days abroad, and is gutted we are not able to due to childcare.

I suggested a big (ish) party with family and friends etc instead, but he was against this idea.

So now we have decided we need to mark the occasion (Lets face it, in this day and age being married for 10 years IS quite and achievement!)

So we are taking the kids with us (of course) for a long weekend in Cornwall as it is where we had our first ever holiday alone together.

I am also organizing a small anniversary party in a local bar, but as my parents are babysitting we are not inviting any family.

I have too admit, it would be amazing to be pregnant by then....