I wish I was announcing good news, but ....

You can probably guess what is coming next...


I started my period this morning, today was day 37 of my cycle.
I am totally gutted yet again, but this time it is actually worse because I had had such a positive feeling about this cycle, it was the first cycle of trying since I removed my prolapse ring pessary and I guess I had let myself believe that this had been the thing stopping me getting pregnant.


I did not have the ring when we conceived our other children, and I did have it when we tried and failed to conceive for the whole of 2008 so it made perfect sense to me.
But I guess I was wrong again!


Yesterday after watching a debate on tv about the IVF postcode lottery, I looked up my local NHS trust to see what they actually said about fertility treatment for my area.
It said if you did not have any children you should be referred for help after trying unsuccessfully for one year, BUT if you already had children you should be referred after trying unsuccessfully for 6 MONTHS!!!


I was upset/angry enough yesterday and planned to wait for what I was hoping was a missed period and then contact my gp again about if I needed to.
So this morning I have phoned and made an appointment to see my gp in 2 days time, I was originally going to ask to speak to him on the phone as he originally said when it came to making the review I would only need to phone him, but now I am so angry and disappointed I need to ask him why to his face, tell him how much worse he has made everything and make sure he does the referral there and then!


On our NHS Trust website it says they run an 18 week referral system, but no point asking my gp about that because it seems he is NOT aware of his own trust's guidelines.


I am still trying not to give myself my usual false hopes by wondering whether this is not a proper period (Implantation bleed, just a bleed etc) and also put out of my head my original plan to buy a test tomorrow and test on Friday morning, which I still keep thinking about as I DID bleed a little in beginning of my last pregnancy.
AGRRRRRRGHHHHHHHH!!!


Will hopefully blog again after Friday's appointment!!