Was so sure it would work

After all my/our efforts this month I really though this would be my month!!

I did everything right, I used the ovulation prediction tests religiously to work out exactly when I was going to ovulate, then we did the deed more often than I think I ever have lol.

I tried to ignore every little symptom, the queeziness, the sore boobs, the twinge type pains that reminded me of the ones I had with my first pregnancy, everything!

Then I even started using an online fertility chart that I had to input my information and it worked out when I would ovulate, when my fertile days were, even when I should start ovulation and pregnancy testing.
Going by my usual 29 day cycles I had worked out my dreaded period was due on the 20th, but when I inputed the date I had a positive result on my ovulation test (day 18 of my cycle) it pushed the date of my period forward to the 23rd.

But on the evening of the 18th I started spotting, this has got a little heavier although still not very bright in colour, I am telling myself that this is my period and NOT an implantation bleed as the lovely ladies on the trying to conceive forum are suggesting as I am just sick of disappointment and raised hopes.

Last week I even took the plunge and ordered one of those online psychic conception readings, it said I would not concieve until early June this year and that I would give birth to a little girl in March next year.
So I am telling myself to believe I won't conceive until then for now.

Confused!!!

I did re test this morning as planned, well infact took two tests this morning, a cheap ebay one and a First Response one...

BOTH were negative, I then decided to update my online fertility calendars to see what they said, I had not put in the days I had got a positive result on my ovulation prediction tests (Day 17 and 18)

Then suddenly the calendars both told me my period (aunt flo) is NOT due on Sunday as I had thought, but because I had ovulated later, it is actually not due until next WEDNESDAY so would have been far too early for a positive result even IF I was/am pregnant.

So now I have to TRY and be more patient and put off testing again this time next week at the earliest IF aunt flo does not turn up first!!

A positive day?

Well I am on day 26 of my cycle and have sussed that most if ny cycles are actually 29 days long and not 28 as I had always assumed.

So my aunt flo is due this Sunday (Today being Wednesday)
Having used ovulation prediction tests for the first time ever this month I worked out that I ovulated around day 18.

I was not planning to even seriously think about testing until next Monday, BUT we ordered something called Conceive Plus from ebay and with it got 50 of those cheapy pregnancy tests and also 50 cheapy ovulation tests.

I just could not resist trying a pregnancy test, it was mid morning so not even the first wee of the day as reccomended, but it came up with a very faint positive line!!

I was determined not to let it go to my head (or heart) and was not planning to mention it to anyone, including hubby until I had taken another test first thing tomorrow morning because although they say a positive is a positive no matter how faint, it is hard to trust when you are scared of being disappointed.

But of course as soon as I heard my husbands voice on the phone I could not stop myself from telling him, although I DID try to down play it saying I needed to check again tomorrow incase it was a false positive.

I was not exactly thrilled with his reaction, nothing he said, just tone of his voice, hopefully it was just because he was at work and the fact I could not say it was 100& definate yet.

So that's it for now, more testing to do tomorrow, if that is also positive (unlike the second test I could not resist doing this afternoon, despite knowing it would be negative as it was more diluted as later in the day as well as being very early days)
I will probably have to re test with the Furst Response I have sitting in the cupboard from last month faulure.

Watch this space, although I don't think anyone IS actually watching (as there are no comments) but it makes me feel better writing it all down so I will keep doing that! lol

Ovulation tests hoping I passed

Well this is my first month ever of using those ovulation predictor kits (Or OPKs as the forums call them)

I was using the ones by Clearblue, I started using them from about day 10 in my cycle which was as soon as my always long period finished.

But I ran out of these while they were still showing negative, so ordered more from eBay as they were cheaper than Boots etc, but as they didn't arrive in time I bought some Boots own brand ones ro see me through.

On day 17 of this cycle I suddenly got a positive result, the line definately looked nearly as dark as the control line, the next day the line was even darler, this remained the case for about 3 days before the line went feint again so I think this means I did ovulate and as we have been dtd (Another forum term, meaning Doing The Deed) like crazy, much to hubby's happiness lol

It is now about 8 days until my dreaded period (AF) is due and according to my friends and experts on the forum I am about 3 days past ovulation which seems to be a very important thing to keep count of when trying to work out dates and the possibility of pregnancy.

I have been telling my friends that I am not looking for or paying any attention to any possible signs or symptoms this month, but the few I have spoken to do not seem very convinced lol

This month WILL be different!

I am determined to do things differently this month, last month I could not help but over analyze every POSSIBLE early symptom of pregnancy.

I was feeling sick, sore boobs, over tired and as much as I tried or said I was not looking out for these signs, I guess I was deep down.

This is the first month I have been using those ovulation prediction stick things and not a fan so far (Although obviously IF I was to get a positive pregnancy test result in two weeks time I will be on here saying they are the best thing since...chocolate)

Just taking that test every day and waiting those 3 minutes or so is a bit too much like taking a negative pregnancy test every day!

Today is day 17 in my cycle and according to all the charts I have checked yesterday SHOULD have been the big ovulation day so will see what my ovulation test says later. (Although the charts do say allow today as ovulation can be a day later)

We have tried ourselves to death since Friday lol Lets see, it was last Monday night and then Friday morning, Saturday morning, Saturday night, Sunday morning, Sunday night and then this morning so that again according to the charts would cover all my fertile days.

Will probably keep trying regularly until dreaded period comes just in case, if I can cope with it lol.

So we will see....

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Well here we are February 1st (White Rabbits - always say that for luck on first day of a month since I was little)

This month/cycle we have bought some of these Clearblue ovulation tests that I have read about other women trying.

Hubby is was not thrilled with the price of them, we went to the chemist and they were...£19.99 for a box of 7, then when we got home I looked them up on eBay and you can get them for like £8.. whooops!

These things are depressing me already and I have only taken 2 (you are apparently meant to test daily) they look and work like pregnancy tests so every time I see one without that all important second line it is just like seeing yet another negative pregnancy test

So right now the plan is to keep taking these daily tests, as apparently this is THE week, think I might have to buy more tests on eBay though as I am beginning to wonder whether maybe I ovulate later than I thought as I can't see why things didn't work out for us last month!

I am a little scared to be honest that I will spend all this month taking these tests up until my next period and will not get the sign that I am ovulating.

1 month today I will be 36 and with having endometreosis I am terrified I am going to hit the menopause early.

Oh well trying to stay positive is a bit harder this month