Hello anyone out there reading this, before I go on I just wanted to say I hope your TTC journey's are going well, I say this because it has occured to me that anyone reading this might be doing so because they are also trying to conceive a baby so just wanted to take a moment to think of you too.
Anyway back to business lol
I DID take the soya isoflavones from cd5 untill cd9, I took 100mg each night just before I went to bed, I took them at bedtime as I was a bit worried about any possible side effects.
After taking them for a few days I did notice I felt a little out of it and groggy, but not so bad I could not cope with it.
I decided to take the 100mg as the tablets I took were 50mg and although I had read about people taking 200mg I was a bit worried as it was my first time taking them and did not want to take a massive dose straight away.
The plan was to see whether they made any difference this cycle and think about upping the dose for my next cycle.
So I stopped taking them after cd9 and started taking internet cheapie ovulation tests the next day and got a positive result on cd18 and cd19.
I have had a positive on cd18 before but it is more common for me to have it closer to cd21 or later.
I also normally get positives for about 3 days in a row before they turn negative and this cycle it was only clearlt positive for 2 days so whether that means anything I don't know.
We have been doing the deed as they say every few days and we also did it the day before the first positive opk and then the next day (The day of the first positive) then have gone back to every few days.
Going by the online cycle calculator because I got an earlier positive opk my next period (AF) is due a little earlier, December 2nd, but it is so hard to know as my cycle lengths vary soooo much these days which seriously stresses me out as I keep getting my hopes up every month only to have them smashed time and time again.
I can't believe it is nearly a whole year since hubby finally agreed to start trying for another PROPERLY again (and final, his words) baby after longing for one for so long.
But it does hurt that after all this time and everything that we have tried, I have got absolutely nowhere and am no better off than I was last year.
Next Monday SHOULD have been our hospital appointment and we should have been finally getting the all important test results and deciding on the next step and now we are having to wait untill January :(
This cycle I have not even bought a single pregnancy test and have no plans to do so as I doubt I will need one, it will be the first month I have not bought one since this journey started.
So I guess we really are just seeing how it goes....
Monday, 21 November 2011
Monday, 7 November 2011
Positive step
Thought I would do a quick little update, nooo I am still NOT pregnant, but I am taking what I hope is a bit of a positive, proactive step in the right direction.
As you know I have been let down and disappointed by the hospital and instead of seeing the fertility specialist at the end of this month, I am now not going to get to see him until January.
I am/was hoping that at this appointment he would be trying me on Clomid to help me to ovulate.
Through all my research and my lovely online forum friends I found out about Soya Isoflavones which are nicknamed "Nature's own Clomid" and are also meant to help with ovulation when taken for 5 days at the start of the cycle.
So today is cd8 and I have been taking 100mg of these since cd5 and tomorrow is my last dose for this cycle. I will then start testing for ovulation with my bargain internet cheapie ovulation tests to see whether they help me to get a positive result any earlier than I normally get (ie cd19 to cd27)
As far as side effects go I am getting a little light headed and didn't feel too well yesterday evening.
I take the tablets just before I go to bed to hopefully reduce any side effects and I am taking a smaller dose than I have read about some people taking.
So will see how it goes...
As you know I have been let down and disappointed by the hospital and instead of seeing the fertility specialist at the end of this month, I am now not going to get to see him until January.
I am/was hoping that at this appointment he would be trying me on Clomid to help me to ovulate.
Through all my research and my lovely online forum friends I found out about Soya Isoflavones which are nicknamed "Nature's own Clomid" and are also meant to help with ovulation when taken for 5 days at the start of the cycle.
So today is cd8 and I have been taking 100mg of these since cd5 and tomorrow is my last dose for this cycle. I will then start testing for ovulation with my bargain internet cheapie ovulation tests to see whether they help me to get a positive result any earlier than I normally get (ie cd19 to cd27)
As far as side effects go I am getting a little light headed and didn't feel too well yesterday evening.
I take the tablets just before I go to bed to hopefully reduce any side effects and I am taking a smaller dose than I have read about some people taking.
So will see how it goes...
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Nope, that didn't work either
I honestly DID try not to get my hope up for this cycle despite all the encouraging words from the lady who did my HSG tube jet wash as she called it at the end of September.
I am trying my hardest not to resent my hubby for this because after getting my positive ovulation test late on day 26 of my cycle we only "tried" ONCE as he just did not want to after that which of course seriously upset and worried me as I cannot help worrying he might just suddenly change his mind about wanting this baby (He promises this is NOT the case)
We did in fact end up having a bit of an argument about why he was not interested at the most important time of my cycle, apparently he had got fed up with it all having to be so "clinical"
Bit unfair after we have been trying for so long and as anyone else struggling with any form of infertility knows you NEED to try at your most fertile times to stand any chance of getting pregnant.
I do understand it is not nice to have to be so clinical about timing but it cannot be helped and it is not like it all month long.
To make it worse and to torture me just a little bit more, my cycle decided to go from being around the 32/36 mark to being 41 days so I gave in and took a pregnancy test which of course was negative, but I still had the glimmer of hope I am constantly foolish enough to let myself have, thinking it might be too early as I was only about 12 days past ovulation.
But then the next evening I started spotting and by yesterday I knew it was over yet again and now today I am in absolute agony and feeling so low.
It might have been a little less painful if I still had the knowledge of having my fertility appointment at the end of this month (November) but of course as you know the hospital so kindly decided to cancel that and put it off for another 3 MONTHS!
So unfortunately another negative blog today, sorry I wish with all my heart it was different, but yet again I am at the stage where I am meant to be being all positive and planning ahead to the next cycle and believing it will be THE one.
But I have always wanted to try to be honest with my blog...
I do NOT feel hopeful or positive for my next cycle, I only see more disappointment ahead of me and because of this I am NOT planning on testing for ovulation or anything like that at the moment and no I am not doing it this way in the vain hope that by not actively trying I will magically become pregnant because after trying everything and failing I do not see how trying nothing could possibly work.
The only thing we might do this month is get hubby semen analysis repeated as requested by the fertility specialist back at our first appointment at the beginning of August.
So who knows anymore?, who knows?
I am trying my hardest not to resent my hubby for this because after getting my positive ovulation test late on day 26 of my cycle we only "tried" ONCE as he just did not want to after that which of course seriously upset and worried me as I cannot help worrying he might just suddenly change his mind about wanting this baby (He promises this is NOT the case)
We did in fact end up having a bit of an argument about why he was not interested at the most important time of my cycle, apparently he had got fed up with it all having to be so "clinical"
Bit unfair after we have been trying for so long and as anyone else struggling with any form of infertility knows you NEED to try at your most fertile times to stand any chance of getting pregnant.
I do understand it is not nice to have to be so clinical about timing but it cannot be helped and it is not like it all month long.
To make it worse and to torture me just a little bit more, my cycle decided to go from being around the 32/36 mark to being 41 days so I gave in and took a pregnancy test which of course was negative, but I still had the glimmer of hope I am constantly foolish enough to let myself have, thinking it might be too early as I was only about 12 days past ovulation.
But then the next evening I started spotting and by yesterday I knew it was over yet again and now today I am in absolute agony and feeling so low.
It might have been a little less painful if I still had the knowledge of having my fertility appointment at the end of this month (November) but of course as you know the hospital so kindly decided to cancel that and put it off for another 3 MONTHS!
So unfortunately another negative blog today, sorry I wish with all my heart it was different, but yet again I am at the stage where I am meant to be being all positive and planning ahead to the next cycle and believing it will be THE one.
But I have always wanted to try to be honest with my blog...
I do NOT feel hopeful or positive for my next cycle, I only see more disappointment ahead of me and because of this I am NOT planning on testing for ovulation or anything like that at the moment and no I am not doing it this way in the vain hope that by not actively trying I will magically become pregnant because after trying everything and failing I do not see how trying nothing could possibly work.
The only thing we might do this month is get hubby semen analysis repeated as requested by the fertility specialist back at our first appointment at the beginning of August.
So who knows anymore?, who knows?
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