Wow I just checked to see when I last wrote my blog, it was AUGUST 27th.
Incase anyone does actually read this I am really sorry, but time has well and truly run away from me.
Where should I begin?
A few days after my last blog it was the 1 year anniversary of losing my Mum.
My hubby of course had to work, but as it was school holidays my 3 boys were home, so along with them, my Dad and my younger brother I went to the crematorium where we have her memorial Rose bush and plaque (and baby Bailey's memorial too) we took her flowers and went back to where I grew up and where my Dad and brother still live. We went for a meal and then to the park we always went to when I was little, it was so sad being there without Mum.
Then shortly after that it was Bailey's first birthday/angelversary
I really really struggled with the build up to the day to the point of making myself ill.
The only way I could deal with the day was to treat it as it was, a birthday, I asked people to send Bailey 1st birthday cards and he got loads, mostly from people I have never even met which is incredible.
He even got presents.
On the day we took little presents, fresh flowers and balloons to Bailey's memorial, we sang happy birthday to him.
We then went to a seaside we had never been to before so will always be Bailey's now, we had hoped to release the helium balloons but it was way too windy.
On the ttc side of things
As you can probably tell the first round of injectable ovulation drugs did not work.
I had the first scan on day 10 which showed no eggs as big as 10mm, they do not count the eggs unless they are at least 10mm and to progress they need to be bigger than 15mm at about day 15.
With that cycle the egg did not get any bigger than 11mm so I was told to stop the cycle.
As they only gave me 3 cycles I was gutted.
Hubby and I were away the time my next cycle started so had to wait another month.
The second cycle the hospital knew I had to double my doses, this was horrible as the injections gave me bad enough side effects before so now they were so much worse.
I get massive massive sudden headaches, everything swells up and hurts.
At the first scan with that cycle I was on day 11, this time there was one egg at 10mm
I was told to take more double doses and was re scanned on day 13, this time it showed the egg was 15mm so I was told to wait 2 days and then take the big trigger shot injection to release the egg,
we did all that but NOTHING! I think my body released the egg before it was ready and before I took the trigger shot.
We were both so so disappointed as we thought it might have worked.
Now I am on my final course, the last help the NHS will give us.
I am on day 12, I had my first scan yesterday and there were 2 eggs both measuring 10mm, I have to take another 2 double doses and go back for my last scan in 3 days time....
