Hello to anyone out there reading these blogs, although I really don't think there is anyone, but that's ok, it just helps to get all this out of my head.
Anyway, I am now in my fourth cycle of this attempt to conceive baby number 4.
Today is....cd32, this is the first month I have got this far, I have usually started the dreaded period days ago by this point in my cycle.
Although I am TRYING not to symptom spot (ahem ahem) I am feeling unbelievably tired/sleepy, my poor boobs feel weird, I feel sick on and off throughout the day and have been getting strange, non period type cramps in my lower abdomen.
I Have been using ovulation prediction tests this month again and did think I got a positive on cd17 using a Clearblue non digital test.
However last week on cd26 I got a little excited because I used an internet dip style ovulation test and got the strongest positive I have ever had, I theen tried an internet dip pregnany test (ok, 3 of them lol) and got a faint positive.
The next morning I got the same so did a digital Clearblue ovulation test and got the smiley face positive result.
I could not help but get my poor hopes up a bit yet again because I have read about people using ovulation tests as pregnancy tests and getting positive results when pregnant.
But of course then came cd28 and everything went back to negatives :(
This was nearly a week ago now, no more positives of any kind, but loads of symptoms.
I guess even if I did actually ovulate the first time, it is still a bit early to get that elusive positive pregnancy test result and if I only ovulated last week it is DEFINITELY too early.
With my other 3 boys my period was always at least 10 days late when the pregnancy tests turned positive.
I finally went to see my gp a few weeks ago and he wants me to have some hormone blood tests, but apprently these have got to be done as close to day 3 of my cycle as possible, so I booked them for tomorrow as I had been due on on Monday (I am writing this on Wednesday) so now I am not sure what to do, I can't seem to bring myself to phone and cancel as feel it might tempt fate and the dreaded period might start any minute.
AGRHHHHH
So as much as I would LOVE to be able to post something positive, I am in limbo right now, sorry but will update as soon as I know anything myself!
Bye for now, journey continues.......
